Chally

A New Begginning...

2005-02-06T04:12:27Z

Hello My Peoples:

Well a lot has happened since I last posted a journal.To start out TONIGHT was so much FUN!I went to Chili's in the ghetto Palm Bay with Lauren and Lindsey and a whole bunch of other people that were friends of my mom. Then we went to the Ray Allaire concert at the Gleason Center at Florida Tech, which was really good. Ray is our estheticians husband at my moms salon, hes a really nice guy and I respect him a lot. His show was certainly interesting, there were some parts taht i was like WTF but then they made scence when I thought about them. Now for the suprising news, kristen and I broke up. Yes it was my decision but I had a reason. For those of you that didn't know, my brother Newel and his 2 friends got into a really bad car accident and stuff on Wednesday, on that night I did a lot of soul searching, and i realized that if I die tomorrow will I be happy and stuff. Kristen and I had some good times but sometimes things just didnt feel right sometimes. I don't know what I want in a girl. So I need some time to figure out who is right for me. Also I need to be selfish sometimes and this is one of those times i need to think about myself. My life is stressful just like a lot of teenagers out there and I need a break. So enough with this sappy crap, life is going good and I am happy about the decision I made it gives me time to "find myself." Oh well, its late and im gonna go to bed. So i'll talk to you all later. Feel free to comment on my decision. Although nothing is going to change how i feel about what i did.

-chally chal

A New Begginning...

2005-02-06T04:12:27Z

AND I'M SPENT!

2005-01-22T03:53:50Z

You know what, i am over so many people right now. I mean seriously, people say stuff and don't expect it to get back to me. I somehow always find out. Someone said thursday night when my dance teacher Penny said "It was a really good class" the person replied thats because chally isnt here. Well you know what if you have a problem with me, please feel free to let me know, because talking bad about me behind my back isnt funny, its childlike and immature. Btw person, we have had good ballet classes with me there so suck it up. Yeah and I am really noticing peple that try to control my life, and make me feel bad for hanging out with my friends. I mean hello , i run my life not other people. I sware i just really now wonder who puts up a facade when they see me and who is a real genuine person. I don't know what i want in my relationships with girls, i jsut dont know. I have found out that girls just suck sometimes and its not fair. But oh well such is life. My life is like a fog over the water, sometimes its clear sometimes its not. I have no clue who to trust, who to believe, and what to do with some situations in my life . So well see how this all pans out.... good night and have a great day whoever reads this. Yeag and i am sick and on some medicine so idk if that provoked these thoughts.

AND I'M SPENT!

I dont know...

2005-01-19T04:13:48Z

I am so confused about my life. I have been dancing for 4 years then i took a break for 2 now i am back and idk its just not clicking for me. Yeah i have improved but there is so much i want, and its not coming to me. I do work hard but i know i need to work harder. For example in dance i have been working on so many thing and only seeing little very unnoticable changes... which sucks i feel like all this work i have put in is going down the drain. And with TenTones the class is great when its great and bad when its bad. Idk about the people in there nemore, sometimes i just feel like i am that one bubble on the work of art, or that one annoying squeek in your chair, when i am in that class. I feel so much more accepted in dance, and idk... people may disagree but this is how i feel . Idk , am i a bad person, do i make people hate me? Do i treat peopel bad ? My life is interesting like i mean i have good and bad aspects to them, i dont have a gray material section i dont think. I just think that i really need to concentrate on dance, and really focus in class and get my goals. I will not accept nething else but sucess. I will never think that performance or that turn was perfect, because i am so critical. I think thats a double edged sword, i beat myself up so bad, and then i jsut get so overwhelemed that it gets worse. Idk... what do i do with this situation. I just need to work harder thats it....well i am sorry for everyone that has to read this.

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Chally Chal

What a weekend

2005-01-16T22:50:23Z

Hey guys!

This weekend has been pretty great so far and I STILL HAVE ONE MORE DAY! Well heres the breakdown my home dawgs (oh yeah im a wigger!) Friday i had dance WOO HOO, but actually it was a lot of fun because our production dance is getting changed so it looks cooler and were gonna place so much higher now! Then i came home and rhinestoned hairties, i did not get cancer from the E6000 because we changed glues YEA! Thats not funny though, Penny (my dance teacher) got a really bad under eye rash from the glue. Ok so then on saturday i slept till liek 12 and then Kristen, Dan, Tegan, Jimmy, Kristens parents, and me all went to go see A Flea In Her Ear at the Henegar Center it was really good actually, although it was kinda confusing the plot was kinda complex. Then we went to Sonic with the crew and got dessert. Watermelon Cream Slush .... :) Well then on sunday i helped my mom get ready for her party she threw for a girl from her work. So we had to put up all the damn baby decorations its her 3rd child so yeah. And then Kristen, her dad and I went ice skating. Kristen ate it so bad she fell flat on her ass... poor little krissy.Well i must got I am going to see White Noise with my youth group! Ill ttyl to yall later.

-Chally Chal

I <3 U Kristen

YES!

2005-01-10T01:52:46Z

Hey Guys! I had a really great night at church, i know i havent said that in a while, but it felt so good to get back into church. I was kinda scared to go back because i was afraid how my Pastor would take it because i havent really been into church lately with my schedule. I really decidd that i need to cut back on the rest of my stuff and get closer in my relationship to God and to all my other friends from church. So i am in a much better mood then i am right now. So you know what life really is good! Me and Kristen are doing better, and thats cool 2.

chachachally @ 2005-01-09T10:29:00

2005-01-09T15:30:15Z

Hey everyone...idk i am in a wierd mood right now. I feel like people dont like me and they say they do. Am i really that bad... if i am please tell me. I just feel like certain people avoid me, or try to forget about me. So I'm kinda depressed because like before we were pretty good friends but now i dont feel we are, this is hapening with people that i thought were my best friends. Oh well life goes on...i just wish we still hung out. Well I will proably post another journal today. talk to you all later.

chachachally @ 2005-01-08T22:57:00

2005-01-09T03:58:20Z

Hey Everyone! Today was a lot of fun. Lauren, Lindsey and I hung out today, we went prom dress/costume shopping for Lauren. Lauren & Lindsey picked me up at like 11:30 this morning and we were on a hunt for something to plaster our bowl with for our duo. So we went to Target and hung out there for a little bit, got a bite to eat. I saw Patty and Jenn the best people there I love them they are like my 2nd family! Then we went to Home Depot and we found the coolest thing its like this textured spray paint that makes it look like stone what ur painting. OH HA HA ! I ment to call Penny's cell to tell her the news and I called Mrs. Conwell instead (IM SO STUPID) it was funny she was like "i am sure penny would love to hear that but shes not home, this is Mrs. Conwell." I was like dying it was hilarious. Then we went over to Lindseys grandpas house to go spray the bowl and it went over well. Then we went on the hunt for prom dresses. WE FOUND THE MOST AMAZING DRESS AT ISABELLAS, it was GORGIOUS!!!!!! It was a white beaded dress... SOO PRETTY! Then we did some other stuff and then we found a great Women dress for Lauren and it was like only 20 bucks! So yeah then we went over to Laurens house for dinner and I feel so culturally aware now , we had 2 differnt kinds of curry, it was really good i liked it a lot. Yeah and i met this kool kid David there, the "group" was goofing around for a while it was good times. Well i must go talk to people online. Have a good night all!

Kristen & Chally !!!! WOOT WOOT

wow...

2005-01-04T03:02:04Z

Oh i forgot, I wanted to say Thank You to Kyle he did something today that took some serious heart and soul. He had us group pray at panera, it was really powerful so Kyle I thank you kyle it was jsut a really cool experience, i felt closer to everyone there. BTW life is a cookie ... EAT IT!

Interesting

2005-01-04T02:55:56Z

Hey Everybody,

So its the first day back to school WO HOO. I love all the teachers that gave me HW BITCHES! Oh well. Today was good everyone thought i looked very good today, I was wearing a bright Pink AE shirt and a Bright Blue AE T-shirt with jeans and flip flops and i guess people liked it. Well whatever tickles ur pickle ladys and gents. Well then I went to Panera with the whole Tenor section of Ten Tones well minus Alex. That was interesting beacause of some stuff with Adam and his X, but hey life goes on. I hope the best comes for him... And TODAY IS MY DADS BIRTHDAY, and i had the guys sing Happy Birthday to him in Panera it was funny, he liked it. Then I got to go to pratice WHAT HELL TAHT WAS. Its always hard the first day back to Ten Tones because u forget the dances and stuff and yeah it kinda sucks. THere is a specific dance I just dont like but oh well i cant change it, it will look good when it has to, i am not doing more then that I cant I HATE IT! But oh well... :) I am very excited to hear our Ballet production music, supposedly its sposed to be good. Who knows... Well i am gonna get going i have a lot of HW 2 do, thanks again TEACHERS! Well thanks everyone today for the compliments, it made me feel good! I will talk to u all later and see most of u tommorrow at another lovely day at SATELLITE HIGH SCHOOL, WOOT WOOT.

-Chally Chal (compliments to pennizzle ;))

Another amazing night!

2004-12-31T04:12:33Z

I just got home a little while ago from an amazing night with Kristen. We went to go see Oceans 12 at the new movie theater. That movie theater is very condusive to couples (removable armrest). LOL... well the movie was good, i would recommend it but it helps if u have seen the first one or if u go with someone that has ( kristen hadnt seen oceans 11 so she was a little lost). Earlier in the day.... Lauren, Lindsey, Jackie and I went to the Avenue had lunch at Panera, and then ice cream at Cold Stone (very happy people there). I decided to start an "ice cream war" yeah lets say i ended up with the most ice cream on myself. Then we went back to my house and me and Lauren had to call competions to see if they would 'approve' our duo, because we use water... its this whole prop thing pain in my ass oh well. Yeah so thats about all i have to say.

thank you kristen for making my night amazing as usual!

ChaChaChally

The Most Amazing Day!

2004-12-29T20:41:39Z

Well I got a text message from Kristen and she asked me if I wanted to go to Epcot on Tuesday, and my mom let me go. I was so excited i could be selfish for one day and get her ALL to me. So when we first got there we rode Mission:Space and it was a lot of fun, the 2nd time around it wasn't to much fun a little to wierd on an empty stomach. By the way the exiting music is really inspiring. Then we went and rode Test Track and that was fun and MY SEAT BELT DIDNT FLY OFF LIKE LAST TIME!!!! By that time, we went into World Showcase and started with Mexico, and rode the little boat ride, it was really cool surprisingly. I guess understanding the language helps a little bit. Well then we did some other stuff, then we went into THE AMERICAN ADVENTURE and we heard the Voices Of Liberty, they are good but if i see one more fake plastered smile I'll die. Then we went actually inside to the theater, i guess it was 2 boring for kristen so she decided to fall asleep and she woke up to the screen opening up to a huge sunset, isn't that sweet! Well now hmm i was contimplating this, isnt it ironic that America gets a theme song, and inspirational message, the biggest venue...hmm were not biased are we! Well then we saw Candlelight, which is so much bettwe when you watch it. It really is a powerful show, to see everyone up there trying to act happy. It helped that Kristen was right next to me holding my hand :) thats always a plus! Then we saw Illuminations-Reflections on Earth, which I must say is one of the most moving and powerful shows I have ever seen. It really gives a sence of unity and togetherness... GOOD LORD THE MAGIC JUST TOOK ME!!!!!!! 10 pts Disney/ 0 pts Chally. Well then at the very end of Illuminations when they moved into that lovely inspirational song WE GO ON, I asked her out!!!! She shook her head and we kissed....IT WAS AMAZING AS THE FIREWORKS OF LET THERE BE PEACE ON EARTH WENT ON!!!!!!!! Then on the ride home me and kristen had some time to ourselves just to reflect on what happened that amazing day. So I thank God for placing this amazing girl in my life. :)